Aspirational: Conversation.

It’s true.  Slowly, I have been pulling myself away from social media since Labor Day 2014.  Instagram, Facebook & Twitter accounts have all been shut down.  I’ve heard it takes a few months for my twitter account to completely disappear.  Facebook apparently never goes away and can be reactivated at any point.  The internet is the greatest black hole creating an empty space of a mindless waste of time – well at least it was for me.

It’s strange cause it’s been really freeing, yet I know there could be more freedom.   The impulsive, unconscious motion to check my phone makes me check my e-mail accounts more often than before.  Maybe it’s time just to take all e-mail off of my phone too.  Because if it is really important, I’ll get a text message or even a phone call, right?

The video below isn’t a celebration of the famous.  It is only the notion that even meeting a “famous person” we may end up missing out on something basic…. A conversation because we are too consumed with the unimportant.

My Nemesis

Oh North Lime Coffee and Donuts. How I love you. In-store made delicious donuts coupled with a chai tea latte has been a weekly, no, biweekly favorite of mine.

Impulsively I signed up for a half marathon for next month. And so, today is our last day to be friends. Will I come again? Well, why wouldn’t I? I just pray when I stop by, at my time of weakness, you will be ‘randomly’ closed.

Good bye to you.

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You Need Me

The most honest of prayers are the ones with the most honest questions. No list with needs. No running off of what happened in the day. Honest, deep questions.

A usual searching question is with the “Why?”

Why did this or that happen?
Why is there injustice in the world?
Why can’t I be someone else?
Why do I have to struggle with this?
Why am I the only one?

The endless “why” questions is responded with no simple or sometimes no answer at all.

Yet, still we sit and wait. We wait and listen. Frustratingly, we wait, we ponder, hoping for a new, “better” response.

Why don’t we ask this one…

“Jesus, what do You want to tell me today?”

In a lot of ways, the question is quite individualistic. But I think His Spirit wants to communicate with us, so why not ask?

In a strange way, the “Why” questions will never be answered. For me, who loves to ask questions – This is a great frustration.

So instead, I’ve come to ask “Jesus, what do You want to tell me today?”

Each day, I write down what I have heard.

Today: You need me.

Because yes, despite my frustration with everything else in the world. I need Jesus. You do too!

Sometimes the best answer, even to all of my “Why?” questions, is within the simplicity of statements: You need me.

Selfish Pain

Too often you are more interested in the stumble than the victories -

the slightest mishap becomes an avalanche of madness instead of a learning opportunity -

the gods have been angry causing increased agony to each pounce down the mountain -

a built up of combat snow and that you’re in the midst of.

At times too hard to sing a redemption song, yet most times too lazy to brush off the first sting -

a white overcoat that would laugh at the temptation -

a strong mindset to accept grace on the first blow -

short prayers for the few to see.

A steady heart never makes the top selling movie -

continuous selfish pain cause agony and drama are a wonderful combination -

but the still it could slow and even stop on command -

if one will understand the necessity of surrender where grace may actually be enough.